I am so tired of being wracked with pain. The last couple of months have been awful. Horrible.
Right now I’m gettting a little break from it. Probably just a short recess, a couple hours of freedom from the demon that rides on my shoulders. I carry so many. They are getting to heavy.
I’m so refreshed and able to move without much pain, I don’t know what to do first. I know to go slowly, though, no matter what my body wants to do. Overdoing will be much worse than letting things go undone. Pain Demon punishes me terrible for over doing.
He’s still there though. He’s looking over my shoulder. Pain will pinch my knees or another vulnerable place every few minutes. He thinks he has to remind me that no little white pills will defeat him permenently. He’s only giving me this small respite because he wants to. He’ll be back very soon full force and I’ll be in a ball in my bead, wondering how much longer I can keep this up. The Pain Demon likes to play these kinds of mind games with me.
Posted on February 3rd, 2009 by admin
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